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DBelow are facsimile quotes from a book entitled "The Secret Life of Laszlo".  These quotes coincide or befits my current predicament. 

"I call them grosteque only out of convention, for me they seem so precise, so fitting, so profoundly natural that at time I cannot imagine that others do not secretly abandon themselves to such thoughts."

"My passion is not a sickness, but a way of life. It is not a tumour which has infiltrated my moral fiber, but a very substance of my being. I am not monstrous, but quintessentially human and evil. It is not what I am, but who I am. I am who I am."

Till the stars collide,

LLQS

in" An Excerpt From Transforming The Mind "

The Dilemma

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool

To weep is to risk appearing sentimental

To reach out for another is to risk involvement

To expose feelings is to risk rejection

To place your dreams before a crowd is to risk ridicule

To love is to risk not being loved in return

To go forward in the face of overwhelming odds is to risk failure

But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing
does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.

He may avoid suffering and sorrows,
but he cannot learn, feel, change, grow, or love.

Chained by his certitudes, he is a slave -
he has forfeited his freedom.

Only a person who takes risks is FREE

" An Excerpt From Transforming The Mind "

To state
of my glowering countenance, or to convey a message based on salient aspects
derives from the account of how an individual identify as another’s impotent
invective, derogative and cognitive perspective (of which has never ceased to
amuse me with their hypocritical antics), such can be exemplified by the banal
subterfuge (of culpable factors assisting an oppression) -under extrinsic
conditions where consanguinity, unfavourable milieus or ineptitude is
attributed as quagmire- of a parent admonishing its offspring (I have
constructed examples pertaining to this vulnerable entity because a portion of
its time is engaged with exciting itself senseless) either by lashing out
cutaneous hurt or indignant words, wherein to the chagrin of the parent, its
obstinate and recalcitrant offspring sedulously adheres to its beliefs without
scruple (and sometimes patience from being endowed with the qualities of
inquisitive temerity) which as a defense mechanism of denial is both a
detriment and benefit to its existence. To contradict and be rendered luculent,
one can abuse a negative to emphasize the contrary, such can be exemplified
when the jejune child submits to the aural recital of its parent, as -in a
polymorphous perverse manner- it acknowledges the periods of comfort the
parent vociferates to instill against its impudence. Repression here creates
pugnacious spirits with compulsive disorders. Therefore preceding this
elaborate instance of intransigence, epistemology can assert that pleasure
succeeds to misery and misery (once cognizant) is pleasurable. However, an
inimical quandary may ensue in the misleading definition between pleasure and
pleasurable: the former being the root word of the latter with an adjective
suffix- indicates the quality of the entity referred to, which in this instance
is directed in a passive sense where it forms adjectives delineating
‘possible’, so misery is apt to create pleasurable possibilities. For the
purpose of illustration and with respect to pragmatists, one simply has to
arrest his attention to his (or her) prudent approach in discerning that
knowledge and action are two separate spheres (purportedly slitting with Occam’s
Razor, time is like a perennial fever). For if one is to permit himself to his
plethora of errors, he would indubitably prescribe himself to euthanasian pills
or sink into obscurity, and as when engendered by adversity can an object of
abject concern be addressed. (This deliberate and controlled induction of a
state of shock is for the purpose of retrieving the pellucid claim of ‘placid
sufficiency’). An error therefore will assume a pattern when it is not
encountered: such an interval is when an individual is liable to fallibilities.
But as opposed to intransigence, effacement can be directly attributed to a
wight instance where as a reflexive; one renders itself furtive as if due to
modesty or diffidence (which is pleasurable). Pleasure thus can be portrayed as
coagulated blood masking a contusion of the heart. A method of thought is
thereby adopted through expression of circumstances an emotional attachment.
But even to the harbinger of eternal regret, I have often been plagued by the
fact that our influences are never innate, even if an individual is smothered
by intuition. Lest I am perceived with incoherence, reticence or even vacuity,
I shall emphasize on my aphorism to discredit any account of idiosyncratic
insensibility.

With
vigil having acquired Chronos’s sickle (to leaven a vertiginous phrenzy), a
separated child sheds tears to summon sympathy from a crowd - a veridical
reaction if one is to consider the psychological dependency nestled within the
comfort a parent displays to its offspring - that over other concatenation of
unfortunate events draws a bond of deference and dependency to the parent. (A
statement that could negate this veritable reaction is when the child does not
shed tears, during such an event it is possible that it is simply exulted by
the scenes inundating its reverie). By a whimsical transition otherwise
regarded with animosity, adolescents will recognize that their acquaintances
share similar propensities to it and in the process form a circle. The once
teeming with exuberance and overweening with a fantasy of ambition adolescent
soon sours as derision permeates (by its conduct of flaunting with sordid
indiscretion) through its sources. A despicable notion hitherto exercised is in
the form of optimism, for it is enslaved by the manacles of chance, probability
accorded by its inherent deception, concomitantly feeding its overdeveloped ego
with compliments to intravenously inject a dosage of valence effects (as
flattery corrupts both parties involved) - as a cognitive dissonance thinking
that an ideal does not require a sacrifice on its part). Imprisoned by a
cadence of optimistic rhythm, anxiety exudes from epiphany, which inexplicably
exhibits feckless alacrity, but if the subject is indecisive, it is heightened
to uncertainty. The need for interaction then arises when an inquiry cannot be
answered reasonably or if the subject is apprehensive in social situations.
Acts of circumvention (whilst subjected to pity and reproach) invokes petulance
(choleric tendencies develop when a subject is unable comply to designs of tacit
nuances (or inconsistency) and exclusively feigns ignorance due to a deadlock,
evidently happiness, humour and jubilance is the opposite of the stated
understanding, which often mistaken as wisdom empowers an individual),
insecurities, incompetence and melancholy (afforded by reminiscence of
childhood comfort), as the credulous individual displaces (whilst insinuating
with a vicious cycle of doctrinal expletives) an aversion and subversion from
its contemptible disposition either towards socializing (ostensible
estrangement under a gossamer shroud of pessimism) or develops a negative
temperament on periods of uninterrupted introspection, it, rendered by an
ambivalence of content and contempt lapses into bouts of mendacity. Suicide
after which becomes an option as the ego realizes that it is the only method of
escape. If one is to approach in a manner of Socratic (or maieutic) method, it
can be postulated that submission, acquiesce, assimilation, addiction,
indifference, ignorance, dissimulation or even the weals of despotism are an
indirect incapability to subsist in the presence (and absence) of an order that
imposes force; fear and parochial coercion has conjured apparitions that
incessantly torment an individual which therein invites fascination (that inevitably
lends one to an afflatus for an unbridled imagination). A child born with a
silver spoon (or in a negative sense, a child unable to practice between
Brahmacharya and beneficial abstinence), on the other hand, enjoys the
epicurean excesses of such, and importune its parents to cradle it to misery
and ignominy, unless perchance it is violently stirred from its slumber. These
exist when the persecuted recipient comport and conform to the vagaries of
society, either stapled to the seat of apathy or taking pleasures in the
limited facilities offered by them (especially those concerning disseminated
maxims, casuistry, pithy mode of discourse and rhetoric devices). The majority
may be impeded by the dreadful prospect of failure, which also is an error
embedded in their pitiful upbringing -being consigned by their progenitors- for
the process of listening verbatim without any or insignificant form of
opposition (which to them is termed an apotheosis or if against ingratitude)
succeeds to create prosaic individuals. So one either mirrors the interest of
Basilisk’s eyes or face the pertinacious and pernicious perils of Lernaean
Hydra…

So how does an individual doubt a doubter ?

"Ordinary morality is only for ordinary people."
Aleister Crowley

"The joy of life consists in the exercise of one’s
energies, continual growth, constant change, the enjoyment of every new
experience. To stop means simply to die. The eternal mistake of mankind
is to set up an attainable ideal."
Aleister Crowley

"I slept with faith and found a corpse in my arms on
awakening; I drank and danced all night with doubt and found her a
virgin in the morning."
Aleister Crowley

"Ulterior estrangement from motives are antithetical (or a vitiation) to one’s demise."
Leonydas Lucyferalle Quazyz Scarpia

"Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for their apparent disinclination to do so."
Douglas Adams

"Free
my hands and I’ll varnish this floor with your brains!"

– From
"The Scarlet Citadel" by Robert E. Howard.

Sometimes
when you are exposed to physical violence, a means to defend yourself with is
not always within grasp. Your hands, however, are always with you, and can be
as lethal as any weapon. Below are lists of attacks that law enforcers are
instructed not to employ, as they may prove pernicious.

 1.

TEMPLE

- A very susceptible vital spot. If struck with sufficient force, may cause
unconsciousness or death.

 2. NASION - This is the summit of the nose.
If struck with sufficient force may cause death.

 3. PHILTRUM - This is the area between the
upper lip and the bottom of the nose. Attack to this area may also cause
unconsciousness or death.

 4. HOOK TO JAW - A powerful hook punch to
the front side of jaw may snap an enemy’s neck. Fatal.

 5. ADAM’S APPLE - A sharp blow here may
cause enemy to asphyxiate.

 6. SOLAR PLEXUS - The small of back. May
cause death.

 7. TESTICLES - The strong, focused pain of a
vicious low blow may cause shock, resulting in death.

 8. BASE OF CEREBELLUM - A powerful blow to
the nape of the neck, causing mortal damage.

 9. COCCYX - A powerful blow to the tail
bone. Fatal.

 10. FULL NELSON - Stand behind the enemy, put
your arms under his, and lock your hands behind his head. Bending the neck
forward may either break neck, asphyxiate enemy, or cut of supply of spinal
fluid to brain, causing brain damage or death.

 11. HALF NELSON - Again, standing behind
enemy, but one arm is used to pin one of enemy’s arms.

 12. BRAIN BUSTER - Bend enemy over towards
you, placing him in a headlock. Grab the back of his belt, and haul him into
the air, vertical, upside-down. Allow yourself to fall backward, landing on
your enemy’s head, which will absorb your combined weight. Most effective on
concrete or gravel.

 13. RUSSIAN OMELET - Cross enemy’s legs. Fold
enemy by pinning his shoulders to ground upside-down and placing his legs above
him. Sit on his legs, folding the bass of the spine. Fatal.

 14. HEART PUNCH - A strongman’s attack, it is
simply a powerful blow to the heart. (Many years ago, the wrestler Ox killed an
opposing wrestler with this attack.)

 15. UPPERCUT - An upward strike to the bottom
of the jaw with the heel of the hand, causing the enemy’s head to snap
backward. May shatter vertebrae. Fatal.

 16. ABDOMEN - A substantial blow to this area
may rupture a vital organ, causing death.

 17. RIB CAGE - A vicious shattering of the
rib cage may cause grave internal bleeding.

 18. HEAD-TO-WALL PUNCH - A swift, hard,
cold-cock punch to an enemy’s face while he is standing near a wall may drive
his head into it, causing the back of the skull to shatter fatally.

 19. PINNED DROP KICK - Standing behind enemy,
holding his arms straight back. A drop kick to the back without releasing arms
may severe spine, causing death.

 20. HEAD WRENCH - Grabbing an enemy’s head by
the mouth and the back of the skull, then twisting with a sudden, violent jerk
to rend vertebrae, may easily cause death.

 21. CHOKE HOLD - Once a favorite of law
enforcement officials, has often proved deadly. The right arm goes over the
enemy’s right shoulder, and grips the back of the head. The left arm comes over
his left shoulder, reaches across neck, and grabs own right forearm. With
enough pressure applied, causes brain damage or death.

 22. HEAD YANK -

Bend

enemy forward, grab head, and pull back
with convincing force. May separate delicate vertebrae, causing death.